You know you're a fat girl when you can't ride one of the rides at an amusement park because you can't get the seat belt to fasten.
This happened to me on vacation in Georgia. Now, I should mention that it was a kiddie ride that I was trying to ride with Nathan. So yes, it was smaller than the average ride. But I have never in my life had to get off a ride, call someone smaller over to take my place, and stand on the sides watching because I was just too fat.
I felt really bad for the baby-faced teenage ride attendant who had to say, "I'm sorry ma'am, I can't get it to latch!" I felt bad for Nathan, who wanted me to ride with him. But most of all, I felt bad for myself, because my weight was holding me back in a very real, very public, way.
Sure, I can make an excuse. I mean, it was a kiddie ride. And all the grown-up rides that I wanted to ride, I could... but if I'm being honest, they were tight and uncomfortable too. And an average-sized adult, like Steve, had no trouble riding that kiddie ride with Nathan.
I have got to lose some of this weight. I have got to make my health a priority. I have got to admit to myself that my weight does have an adverse affect on the way I live my life.
And I've got to make the changes needed to get healthy, once and for all.
Go girl!! Go girl!! Some friends and I have been doing "Body for Life" for Women together. I highly recommend getting some girlfriends around you to encourage you. It is SOO HARD to make changes at first. But if you stick it out, they become habits and you will feel so good!! It took me a long time to get where I wanted to go because I refused to do crash diets. I encourage you to be a lifer!! You can do it!!!!
ReplyDeleteGrace; Losing weight is hard. Losing weight alone is worse, and losing weight while the rest of your household is not on a diet, well that is just impossible. Don't be too overly hard on yourself...because it's not something you can do alone. Back about 7 years ago (maybe more?) I lost 100 lbs. Within a year of "getting off" my diet, I had gained about 30 of it back. However, over the next 5-6 years or so, both my husband and I kept our weight around that level. Since having Erin I have found it hard to keep eating healthy, mainly because we have "bad" food in the house more often. I am typically less inclined to cook our meals, and it's too hard to cook different meals for the three of us. Erin just turned two, and I am about 10 lbs heavier then I was the week before i had her (40 lbs up from when I got pregnant!). It is a hard reality to accept, but it's something that i can control, and you can too. (I have PCOS and, if i remember correctly, you do as well).
ReplyDeleteOne of the major things I have to do when I start this is go though the kitchen and toss everything that i can't, or shouldn't, eat. This means Steve will likely need to start "eating healthier" too. He likely doesn't "need" too, but for your sake, he should. I only keep small packages of items for Erin (our daughter) to eat, and they all go in her own cabinet in our kitchen. They don't go in the pantry, or in with our foods. I buy singe serve (100 calorie) type bags of cookies and crackers for her so I am not as likely to want to try and eat them. (it was much easier to do this when I could just totally remove the stuff we shouldn't eat from the house, but it is no longer an option). When (if) we go out to eat, it is somewhere that i can get something "on diet", and both me and Troy (in your case Steve should too) get the "healthy" meals. Having the support and reinforcement from him is critical, it just ten folds the difficulty to stay "on diet" when you are watching him eat what you wish you could. When I good dinner, he gets what I eat (and honestly, what's wrong with our men eating Salads and veggies?).
What diet are you doing? We spent a lot of time on low carb diets, and they do work...if done correctly.
We're going to try Nutrisystem starting this weekend (when the package gets here) for something different this time. It's more expensive though... We'll see how it goes.
Kathy Voelker (Kauzlarich)
Hi Grace :) I'm usually a lurker, but I just have to say fighting with weight stinks, it was a lot easier when I had people making me exercise and forcing me to pay attention to my weight (we had weigh-ins ACK!) in the Air Force!!! With that said we did what Kathy said and took all of the bad stuff out, we try really really hard that if it isn't healthy no one needs to be eating it...including those who don't need to lose weight, including my 3.5 year old! I make one meal, making sure there's at least one thing my daughter will eat and that's it...kitchen is closed after dinner.
ReplyDeleteAdd to this that my husband has colitis and we've been playing with a non-gluten diet (wow is it not fun) so I spend a lot of time on the web looking for recipes. (As an aside I totally love the "Heavenly Homemakers" website....she has some pretty good "whole foods" recipes.)
One last thing that's helped us...for almost a year we've been completely on Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace road. Using strict grocery budgets and an even more strict eating out envelope has really made us conscious of where we spend our money. This summer we subtracted from our grocery budget and added a "farmers market" envelope so we go and together pick out veggies and fruits...but only up to what we have in the envelope. I don't know where you are with the "eating out" aspect but that was KILLING us monetarily and physically, but now we have no money to eat out, it all goes to fund our emergency fund! Problem solved!
You are still one of the bravest and most awesome people I know. And in the immortal words of Jillian, "If it doesn't have a mama, and it didn't come from the ground...don't eat it!" ;)
-Kinzie
For us, we were able to "upkeep" our weight by just making healthy choices. When we slip up abit, we just be extra careful. However since having Erin we stopped being careful. I was tired a lot, and couldn't stick to anything. Now that i have 40 i need to lose (to get me to a weight I am "Ok" with), and 80 I would like to lose, it's time to push into a harder diet. We'll see how the Nutrisystem goes, if it doesn't work out, we'll go back to low carb stuff till we drop the weight.
ReplyDeleteWe also joined the YMCA and we're working out an hour a day 4-5 times a week...then taking the little one swimming. She loves the pool there, they have an amazing waterslide. Unfortunately, it's much more expensive then I would have thought, so we'll have to go a lot so i feel we get our money out of it...but that's good, right? :)
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